I don’t know if anyone else has ever felt this way before, but when life just puts a number on you and you just finally buckle from it and fall down until you finally hit the ground. And you just feel this pain in your chest where you know your entire world is turning upside down before your eyes. And no matter how much you try to put a fake smile to make this pain disappear, that heavy feeling comes back and weighs you down; and it just hurts so much when you finally are alone because thoughts just flows through your mind that you much rather have forgotten and erased.
The worst part is how no matter at how you try to look at life, at that very moment, this disparity seems inescapable as if it has you chained down to it’s dungeon walls. This pain numbs you and makes you feel lost with no way back. And you just start believe life is just meant to be like this for you: bitter and lonely. If anyone knows what pain I’m talking about, then you guys know it hurts. And I really wish you get out of this phase or never feel it again. No one deserves to feel like that.